Do you ever believe in fairytales? I dont. I believe in Jesus. Daddy God is the best-damn-GOD on Earth! He sent Jesus down and Jesus died for us. Daddy God loves me and I love Daddy God :DD
"I love the LORD because He has heard my voice and my supplications." Psalm 116:1
Daddy God, i pray that my family and all my friends will soon accept you into their heart and let you be their Almighty Daddy God. In the name of Jesus, i pray, AMEN !
BLABBERINGS;
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
You know, at some point in time, i may just break down and leave. I will.
Every single day without fail, you will nag and scold me once you step into the house. And i really mean every single day. No matter what i do, you'll always pick on my bad points. You'll never look on my good points.
And at my weakest point in life, you will never fail to be impatient when i talk to you abt my unhappiness and anger while i will always be listening to your stories of saying how bad people are. Look at yourself.
Although you've been a nice mom cooking meals, boiling soups, making herbal teas, buying food for us, you've never look at how you should improve. I dont mean that im a perfect daughter. I'll try to change my bad habits. But it's just my brain that fails me. I have a scatterbrain. Cant you forgive me for that?
At this very crucial point of my secondary school life, you keep adding on stress and pressure to me by nagging and scolding. Although you've never expect As from us like other parents do, you're still not better of in any way more. You're FOREVERnagging. Even Dad agrees. Even if you have menopause or something, you shouldnt treat me like that okay?
Sometimes, i really cant find a way to relieve myself from your terrible scoldings. I know i should bare with it. But i'll burst sooner or later. Humans are like a can of coke. It will not burst from little shakings here and there but as you shake more and more, it'll sooner or later burst one day. You seeing me not studying doesnt mean that i am super free. I need rests and breaks okay?
Since young, we've obeyed 95% of what you want from us. You want us to cut SUPER SHORT HAIRSTYLES, we cut. You want us to do this we'll do it. You ask us to do that, we'll do that. Now that we're big enough and have minds of our own, can you stop treating us like your puppets? We're humans, your daughters. NOT PUPPETS.
I dont know how long more i can stand you. I may just break down right before my Os and stop studying. Idk what will happen if you continue being so unreasonable. Can you at least let me explain what i've done wrong before chiding me like i mad a major mistake that i should be sentenced to death? i think i should have own freedom. I dont wanna be your puppet.
i really need Daddy God. I think i really cant live without Him.
Wednesday, September 09, 2009
Super long since i blogged. HAHAS.
Been really busy with F&N coursework and prelims. Of course, all these are under the big category of S-T-U-D-Y-I-N-G. Yeap, studystudystudy. I feel like jumping down at times. But i enjoy the process of chiong-ing. Cause i know at the end, i'll be super satisfied if i chiong. However, my brain memory is used up. &worst, idk what it is used up for. I just cannot get anything important and non-nonsensical into my brain. I keep having nonsense thoughts and ideas of how to enjoy aft Os. Maybe my brain is secreting some unknown hormones to inform me that i really look forward to the end of Os. The big problem's here : Prelims' still halfway through. Many more to clear lah. ARGHHS. JOLENE TEO WEI TIAN, please stop being crazy over dramas, teevee shows, k-pop and things. Okay, FYI, i'm slowly being crazily in love with k-pop, thanks to a group of k-pop-siao girls in my class who sit just right next to me. Esp the one whose surname is Ong. Yes, Karina Ong. HAHAS. She everyday randomly turns to me(i sit beside her with only a small gap apart) and speak nonsense to me. HAHAS. I remember one of the days where she got this crazy idea of asking Shristi(she's nepalese) to sing chinese and let us guess what song she's singing. When we all had great difficulty guessing, K ong suggested me to sing k-pop songs and let them guess what song im singing. Retarted right? HAHAS. &¬ forgetting, AngMingJie asked me to go some korean website to learn korean. Im in deep shit lah. How i wish english/maths/F&N/geog/ss is as interesting as korean. HAHAS. I seriously hope that one morning when i wake up (way before O starts), i'll have limitless memory space in my bigbig useless brain.
5 papers down. 7 papers + practical left.
Speaking about practical, we had mock practical on Monday to prepare us for our upcoming prelim practical. Biology was okay except the part where i was so dumb to put benedict's solution into the dialysis tubing when im supposed to put it into a small part of water. (i think most of you dont understand) But i managed to change my foolish mistake. I think i screwed my Chem practical up. I got a weird thing after adding "one spatula full of Z". The damn paper wrote this :" One spatula full of Z" and i really added "ONE SPATULA FULL OF Z" and guess what? The whole solution shoot up like rocket and overflowed. Worst, it was kind of hot and i burnt my finger. Then i started laughing myself there then i tried to calm myself down. But i kept laughing throughtout the practical lah. I think cause i see people do until so serious while i make a lot of stupid mistakes. Then Ms Lim Geok Choo kept looking at me when i laughed to myself. I suppose that she suspect im cheating. LOLS. But it's weird to do Bio in a Chem lab.
Study camp's finally over. Gonna meet up to study tmrw at "kong qi zhu" HAHAS. wanna know what is "kong qi zhu"? Dont tell you leh. Is Emilia they all create one. And i thought for the whole day just because this phrase. Im slow lah, i know. Esp when exams are coming, i get very sheepish and cant do things right.
Howhowhow? I have soooooo many dramas that i wanna watch. Korean ones, taiwan, hongkong, japan. SOOOOO MANY ! so tempted lah. To Jolene's brain: please, dont be tempted!
Anyway, went for Connect '09 with Nicholas, Kelvin, Yusen, YiHao, LongJie and JianKang. Managed to bring them to meet up with Chase and some of the cell members. Now i realised these 6 boys are super shy lah. I brought them into the Ruby room where the rest were playing Wii. Then the 6 of them went toilet throwing me there. HAHS. then Beverly managed to get them in and we played Wii tgt. My first time playing Wii. Super fun lah. But a bit difficult to control. Aft that, had service. And another first time: my first time going service with my cell people. HAHAS. So fun lah. All jumpjump tgt. And yusen has interest in attending cell group next sat ! Daddy God, I pray that the rest of them will come for cell too (:
Anyway, Nic went for operation on Monday to remove the two screws from his leg. Hope he can recover and walk normally. I look forward to the day where i can walk normally too ): I may seem to recover, but when i sit for too long or just woke up from my bed, i'll have difficulty walking properly cause it's painful ):
Currently studying in Yuying Sec, 4D.
Im proud to be in YYSSCO, playing the gaohu.
Daddy God brought me to this world on 19aug1993 &&i ♥ FAHRENHEIT ! i ♥ GOD
i ♥ CHIPMUNKS :D
i ♥ PURPLE the way i ROCK !
i ♥ my GIRLFRIENDS; LYNN, YULYNN, EMILIA, MELISSA, JASMINE AND MINLI
i ♥ 208; NICHOLASTANSHENGHUI :DD
i ♥ er-hu / gaohu
i ♥ YYSCHINESE ORCHESTRA
i ♥ CHOCOLATES, not too sweet or bitter :D
i ♥ 金桢勋/김정훈/KIM JUNG HOON :DDDD
i ♥ 陈奕儒/CALVIN CHEN YI RU :DDDD
i ♥ korean and chinese songs(:
i'll BITE if you're nasty !
You know, at some point in time, i may just break down and leave. I will.
Every single day without fail, you will nag and scold me once you step into the house. And i really mean every single day. No matter what i do, you'll always pick on my bad points. You'll never look on my good points.
And at my weakest point in life, you will never fail to be impatient when i talk to you abt my unhappiness and anger while i will always be listening to your stories of saying how bad people are. Look at yourself.
Although you've been a nice mom cooking meals, boiling soups, making herbal teas, buying food for us, you've never look at how you should improve. I dont mean that im a perfect daughter. I'll try to change my bad habits. But it's just my brain that fails me. I have a scatterbrain. Cant you forgive me for that?
At this very crucial point of my secondary school life, you keep adding on stress and pressure to me by nagging and scolding. Although you've never expect As from us like other parents do, you're still not better of in any way more. You're FOREVERnagging. Even Dad agrees. Even if you have menopause or something, you shouldnt treat me like that okay?
Sometimes, i really cant find a way to relieve myself from your terrible scoldings. I know i should bare with it. But i'll burst sooner or later. Humans are like a can of coke. It will not burst from little shakings here and there but as you shake more and more, it'll sooner or later burst one day. You seeing me not studying doesnt mean that i am super free. I need rests and breaks okay?
Since young, we've obeyed 95% of what you want from us. You want us to cut SUPER SHORT HAIRSTYLES, we cut. You want us to do this we'll do it. You ask us to do that, we'll do that. Now that we're big enough and have minds of our own, can you stop treating us like your puppets? We're humans, your daughters. NOT PUPPETS.
I dont know how long more i can stand you. I may just break down right before my Os and stop studying. Idk what will happen if you continue being so unreasonable. Can you at least let me explain what i've done wrong before chiding me like i mad a major mistake that i should be sentenced to death? i think i should have own freedom. I dont wanna be your puppet.
i really need Daddy God. I think i really cant live without Him.
Wednesday, September 09, 2009
Super long since i blogged. HAHAS.
Been really busy with F&N coursework and prelims. Of course, all these are under the big category of S-T-U-D-Y-I-N-G. Yeap, studystudystudy. I feel like jumping down at times. But i enjoy the process of chiong-ing. Cause i know at the end, i'll be super satisfied if i chiong. However, my brain memory is used up. &worst, idk what it is used up for. I just cannot get anything important and non-nonsensical into my brain. I keep having nonsense thoughts and ideas of how to enjoy aft Os. Maybe my brain is secreting some unknown hormones to inform me that i really look forward to the end of Os. The big problem's here : Prelims' still halfway through. Many more to clear lah. ARGHHS. JOLENE TEO WEI TIAN, please stop being crazy over dramas, teevee shows, k-pop and things. Okay, FYI, i'm slowly being crazily in love with k-pop, thanks to a group of k-pop-siao girls in my class who sit just right next to me. Esp the one whose surname is Ong. Yes, Karina Ong. HAHAS. She everyday randomly turns to me(i sit beside her with only a small gap apart) and speak nonsense to me. HAHAS. I remember one of the days where she got this crazy idea of asking Shristi(she's nepalese) to sing chinese and let us guess what song she's singing. When we all had great difficulty guessing, K ong suggested me to sing k-pop songs and let them guess what song im singing. Retarted right? HAHAS. &¬ forgetting, AngMingJie asked me to go some korean website to learn korean. Im in deep shit lah. How i wish english/maths/F&N/geog/ss is as interesting as korean. HAHAS. I seriously hope that one morning when i wake up (way before O starts), i'll have limitless memory space in my bigbig useless brain.
5 papers down. 7 papers + practical left.
Speaking about practical, we had mock practical on Monday to prepare us for our upcoming prelim practical. Biology was okay except the part where i was so dumb to put benedict's solution into the dialysis tubing when im supposed to put it into a small part of water. (i think most of you dont understand) But i managed to change my foolish mistake. I think i screwed my Chem practical up. I got a weird thing after adding "one spatula full of Z". The damn paper wrote this :" One spatula full of Z" and i really added "ONE SPATULA FULL OF Z" and guess what? The whole solution shoot up like rocket and overflowed. Worst, it was kind of hot and i burnt my finger. Then i started laughing myself there then i tried to calm myself down. But i kept laughing throughtout the practical lah. I think cause i see people do until so serious while i make a lot of stupid mistakes. Then Ms Lim Geok Choo kept looking at me when i laughed to myself. I suppose that she suspect im cheating. LOLS. But it's weird to do Bio in a Chem lab.
Study camp's finally over. Gonna meet up to study tmrw at "kong qi zhu" HAHAS. wanna know what is "kong qi zhu"? Dont tell you leh. Is Emilia they all create one. And i thought for the whole day just because this phrase. Im slow lah, i know. Esp when exams are coming, i get very sheepish and cant do things right.
Howhowhow? I have soooooo many dramas that i wanna watch. Korean ones, taiwan, hongkong, japan. SOOOOO MANY ! so tempted lah. To Jolene's brain: please, dont be tempted!
Anyway, went for Connect '09 with Nicholas, Kelvin, Yusen, YiHao, LongJie and JianKang. Managed to bring them to meet up with Chase and some of the cell members. Now i realised these 6 boys are super shy lah. I brought them into the Ruby room where the rest were playing Wii. Then the 6 of them went toilet throwing me there. HAHS. then Beverly managed to get them in and we played Wii tgt. My first time playing Wii. Super fun lah. But a bit difficult to control. Aft that, had service. And another first time: my first time going service with my cell people. HAHAS. So fun lah. All jumpjump tgt. And yusen has interest in attending cell group next sat ! Daddy God, I pray that the rest of them will come for cell too (:
Anyway, Nic went for operation on Monday to remove the two screws from his leg. Hope he can recover and walk normally. I look forward to the day where i can walk normally too ): I may seem to recover, but when i sit for too long or just woke up from my bed, i'll have difficulty walking properly cause it's painful ):
