Do you ever believe in fairytales? I dont. I believe in Jesus. Daddy God is the best-damn-GOD on Earth! He sent Jesus down and Jesus died for us. Daddy God loves me and I love Daddy God :DD
"I love the LORD because He has heard my voice and my supplications." Psalm 116:1
Daddy God, i pray that my family and all my friends will soon accept you into their heart and let you be their Almighty Daddy God. In the name of Jesus, i pray, AMEN !
BLABBERINGS;
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Finally. Im uploading the Sakae outing pictures. I uploaded only 2 in my blog. HAHAS. But the rest i will upload in my Facebook. 51 pics leh If i upload here it'll be super lag.
Anyways, went to Emilia's house for 'Popiah Party' just now.
Altogether 8 of us (including me) went and wreaked havoc in her house. (oops)
There were Me, Minli, Lynn, Mel, Gi, Reb, DJ, WeeLiang and of course Emilia herself.
Super high and fun.
HAHAS.
Shall upload the photos on facebook.
I think all of us gained 5kg.
HAHAS.
We ate and ate and ate.
Exercise of the day were;
Exercise for eyes - watch teevee
Exercise mouth - eat and talk
Exercise hands - wrap popiah, take food, play mahjong/ tai dee
Exercise ears - listen to stories
Exercise legs - walk to Emilia's house from Serangoon MRT
HAHAS.
See? got exercise okay?
It was so sumptuous.
Got Popiah, pasta, some chinese snack from Reb, chicken wings, potato chips, fruits, chocolate fondue, Emilia's maid's homemade pau and doughnut made by Emilia's maid from leftover dough of pau. So many things to EAT :D
School's re-opening sooooooooooooooooooon,
Im scared i cant sleep earlier.
Im scared i cant wake up early. Im scared i'll not be able to stay awake in school. Im scSCREAMMMMMMS.ared i'll forget to bring important stuffs. Im scared i'll not be able to pay attention in class.
Im scared i'll yawn the whole day.
Im scared i'll keep talking.
Im scared i'll be super tired.
Finally, IM SCARED THAT I'LL FORGET THERE'S SCHOOL !
Just some random note:
Solitaire is so fun when you play it with a friend ! (:
Right, Pabu? *winks*
AHHH.
HILLSONG CONCERT
COUNTING DOWN TO 29 days :DDDDDDDD
Monday, June 22, 2009
It'll be super slow if i upload one by one.
So i merged it into a collage (:
The sakae one i need to wait till i have time then i'll update.
Cause i have to tell stories.
HAHAS.
Anyway, i covered my face in 2 pics as i look super retarted.
YAYNESS.
Clique BBQ confirmed on 25th June :D
I miss all my CHIO-BUs !
Especially ChewYuLynn.
The last time i saw her was like superlong ago lah ):
Gonna go Sheng Shiong to buy the food and stuffs on tuesday after POA.
&I guess i'll be wearing full sch u as Mrs Gan requested.
&&Shermin wants to go Sticky, which is at Clarke Quay.
LOLS.
Finished watching Boys Over Flowers like finally.
Sorry lah, i know i slow.
HAHAS.
Got finish better than never watch at all.
But now i finish watching, i feel very empty.
Cause for the past weeks, i've been chiong-ing home to watch it.
Then now nthg to watch already.
):
Anyway,
Daddy God realy answered my prayers.
Lynn accompanied me to church cause bobian need to buy Hillsong concert tix.
But at least she got accompany me lah :D
Then suddenly while having P&W, 2 familiar faces appeared :
LongJie and XinRong.
Then they joined us.
Aft that, i went out to fetch JianKang in.
We keep talking throughout.
Only manage to note down few things.
Then aft that we went to get the Hillsong tix.
The tix person very poor thing.
Have to tear 37 tix one by one.
Plus, the tix are super thick and difficult to tear.
Then Chase encouraged me to bring them to the level session.
Anyway, im proud to announce that TAN LONGJIE & TAN JIANKANG are officially
NEW CREATION CHURCH'S members :D
I hope that Lynn they all will go to the level session next Sat with me.
I look forward.
Chase says i should encourage them to come.
Hmmm, how to?
Daddy God, please help me !
ROAR,
IM HUNGRY :O
I think you stole my heart away....
Friday, June 19, 2009
Suddenly had the inspiration to blog at 1am in the morning. HAHAS. No pics in this post however. Sorry ah. HAHAS.
Been crazily watching Boys Over Flowers. I know im kinda slow lah. But i couldnt dl it into my Qvod Player. Until Hols start then i start. LOLS. After watching so many scenes of Jun Pyo making Jan Di so sad, and then Ji Hoo to the rescue, i cant stop having this jealous feeling. The feeling of :"how i wish i am her" and at the same time, "dont want to be like her" feeling. I wish i am her cause she always has Ji Hoo being her Guardian Angel, Guarding her wherever she is, protecting her. I dont want to be like her cause i dont want to love so painfully. Although at the end, it's worth it. but it's super torturous okay? hais, how i wish there's someone like Ji Hoo existing in the world, always there for me, being my guardian angel. At the same time, i also hope to have a boyf like Jun pyo. So caring at times and quarrelling with me, so fun. To think of all these, this thought suddenly came :" It's God's arrangement. Daddy God will definitely help you find your Mr. Right who is the one and only for you." And aft this, i thought :" I already have a guardian angel ! Daddy God♥" HAHAS.
Was talking to this Pabu idiot on msn. Me :"dont you feel that night is so much better than day?" Pabu :"y? i feel the same. except day always sweat." Me :"night is so quiet and pleasant to let your mind able to quieten down and think a lot of things" Pabu :"because its time to sleep"
then i really sian diao Me :"No. really.you definitely got sit at the bus stop at night alone right?" Pabu :" Yea, Just now." Me :"dont you like the night breeze?" Pabu :"i like. But aircon nicer what."
this time i super sian le. LOLS. so i didn't continue the topic with Pabu. CausePabu not mature enough to understand.
But seriously, it feels really great to sit at a quiet corner, enjoying the night breeze. Thinking and reflecting about Life and stuffs. so nice right? I feel like taking a break. Feel like sitting down with someone and share my thoughts.
Anyway, treating Daddy to delifrance breakfast buffet for father's day. And he agreed :D Super happy. Havent eat breakfast together as a family outside le. The last time was like few years back lah.
Pabu lah you. HAHAS.
Daddy God, I really miss going to DARE. Find someone to go with me this saturday and make it fun and fruitful alright? Thank you Daddy. In the name of Jesus, I pray, AMEN :D
Sunday, June 14, 2009
OMG. uber HIGH now. *SCREAMS !* Thanks LynnWee for making me so HIGH. sounds wrong right? HAHAS. actually is cause of the hillsong thing. The Zone Conference. SUPER COOL SIA ! Want to know more about my church, New creation Church? Link :Http://www.newcreation.org.sg Want to know more about The Zone? Link : Http://www.thezone.newcreation.org.sg Want to know more about the youth service that i always go to? Link : http://thezone.newcreation.org.sg/dare
SuperHIGHla! Anyway, it's called The Zone Conference, Guest Speaker : Ps Judah Smith Praise and Worship by Hillsong United(scream!) Get ready for this AWESOME event. If you're interested, feel free to ask me (: I'll try to answer as many questions as possible. I entered NCC last yr around sept only okay? HAHAS.
I missDARE service now. I WANT TO GO NEXT WEEK ! Anyone wanna go too? :DD
Anyway, i was supposed to be angry and irritated by my Mum once again. But after Lynn told me that the tickets reservation has started, i become uber HIGH. God's grace to have Lynn to cheer me up indirectly. HAHAS. I then changed my msn nick to : Im uber high now ! Thanks Lynnwee. HAHAS !
After that, Wee saw it:
Lynn wee, says: thank me, must also love me la.
Then i changed to: Im uber high now ! Love Lynnwee lah. HAHAS !
Hahas. Confirmed List now got: 1) Jolene (me) 2)Lynn 3)Mel 4)Min Li 5)Gi 6)Jasmine 7)Yusen 8)Kelvin 9)Kaye 10)Nicholas 208
And GJ told me to reserve 5 tix for her. &Also, she didnt know that Eunice and Mel are coming back from Bangkok, Thailand tmr. LOLS. She forgot that today's Sunday. so funny lah that auntie. (oops, lucky she dont read my blog)
Anyway, i'll try to upload all the 50plus photos i took for the Sakae trip. &With narrations and short retarted and cute stories. My girls are very cute one okay? HAHAS. Anticipate my next post !
Hey Jesus, you're so fine, you're so fine you blow our minds, Hey Jesus !
Tuesday, June 09, 2009
BIAS. Do you know what it really feels? Ever tried to be treated not as well as your siblings by your mother? No. I cant blame the fact that you dont feel it so you dont care. But i tell you something. You know what? I SERIOUSLY CARE about it okay? It's not that im over-sensitive or making a big fuss. Im also not bad-mouthing Jie. It's just that she's been treated by you better. Jie is unconscious so it's not her fault. She's born to be the weaker one who needs more attention and love. Yes, i dont deny this fact. But do you have to be so bias? Just cause she cried. You want her to rest. Yes, she has more stress. I admit. But dont i have my stress too? It's simply your BIAS-NESS lah. Come on man, it really hurts me a lot. When i was studying for my common tests and my O level Chinese, you dont really treat me so good can? You only came in to nag. I still had to do housework on the eve of O LEVEL. hello? O LEVEL mind you. I want to graduate with an A1 for chinese. Im not as hardworking as Jie. So i need to grab every extra opportunity to revise. Aiya, i say so much you also dont understand. Im always the naughty and stupidest one in your eyes right? Im useless, lazy&love to talk back. You threaten me that you'll go crazy if i accept Christ. I have my freedom. I think im better being a Christian. At least im not forced to kneel. I like it like that. I like it ! &Thanks for discriminating my religion. i told you i will talk to you nicely. When i talk to you nicely, you told me off. You didnt want to listen. When i have problems, you want to watch your teevee, do your stuffs. You feel that im a nuisance. My sharing of troubles and everything else are only CRAP to you.
C-R-A-P. I dont feel important you know? You love to kp me early in the morning. Have you ever thought of how it will affect me for the rest of my day? You wont understand.
Nobody understands.
I think i'll go crazy someday. You treat me well when you need favour or when i do housework. I talk to you nicely you talk to me until very fierce. ARGHHS/ im piss-ed. thanks.
I bet you dont even know even if i cry. &i bet you'll not even bother and will feel that im childish. You Dont Even Care. And see, here comes your nagging. I think my head will burst soon. I feel like breaking down. But who will be there if i ever break down? Hais,
"Thanks" for everything.
Saturday, June 06, 2009
ARGHS :/ been stucked at home the whole day to rot. And i've done nthg but watch teevee and surf the net. &By surfing blogshops, all the clothes have start to tempt me. Esp those oversized ones. AHHH !
This attracted me very much. HAHAS. Today has been super boring lah. I've been : Eating, surfing net, playing online games, watching teevee. Sucky day.
Anyways, im finally like going to exercise. Super fun to play badminton, esp with my bunch of lovely Girls. Will be playing on Monday@ Hougang Sports Hall. Those who're going there on Monday, you may be lucky enough to see us there (: Mel sent me an sms to remind me to dig out my "treasure" Her sms super cute and funny lahs:
Elephant! Rem to dig your treasure out hor (: Ps: treasure = racket(:
Copied exactly. Mel, it's supposed to be racquet. HAHAS. So cute larh. TREASURE... Will be going with Mel, MinLi, Gi, Reb, Gi's bro, etc.... And Mel didn't dare to speak to the person to book the courts, Therefore, JoleneTeo here has to do the job. I tell you, the person super funny. She asked a lot of questions. Like almost my whole particulars she wanna know such as IC No., address, number.... Now then i know book courts so 麻烦 one. Im seriously bored lah. Nobody entertain me. Stupid Ziqi reply super slow. Old people reply very slow one, so cannot blame :/ Then the Guiling MIA. Ps: Guiling, if you wanna make comment, pls dont tag on my board. Later whole world know who you are then not fun le. HAHAS.
Ohmygod, coursework next week. Need to chiong le lah. I think this hols is like not hols lor. Like normal school. Study camp starts at 8am and ends at 3.15pm. Start and end a bit later than normal school day nia, what's th diff ? :/ But the school is "nice" enough to provide breakfast and lunch for us. Wednesday Breakfast - Curry puff + Soya bean milk Lunch - Black Pepper chicken rice + packet drinks Thursday Breakfast - Some cake which is not soft at all + ChinChow No lunch as we ended at 1 plus Friday Breakfast - Spring Roll and cake + Soya Bean Milk Lunch - Chinese Mixed Rice + packet drinks.
&while we were all eating, everyone else from sec 1 - 3 were looking at us with weird eyes. And eating together with the whole Sec 4 Exp and Sec 5 Na make us look like we're really having camp. HAHAS. We're like criminals in boot camp lah.
Okay, i shall say BYEBYE.
It hurts a lot to leave you.... &I feel so empty without your presence... Everytime you say bye, it seems like you'll never come back. I love to see your smile. It makes me feel like im not alone anymore. 只有你的笑容能让我心动 Saranghae♥
Thursday, June 04, 2009
Time flies, it's like Thursday already lah. Study camp was okay. except the fact that i was forcing my eyes open.. HAHAS. Super tired lah. It's like holidays now and the first thing you see in the morning in school are less than half of the school's population. When you think of it, you'll be like:" Why am i suffering here when all the juniors are playing, having fun, hanging out?" But when results show, you'll start to thank the teachers. And somemore, i think all our teachers are very 伟大 lor. They sacrifice their holidays just to come back and teach the sleepy us. Let's show our gratitude to them by paying attention in class ((:
Anyway, i heard that my chinese P1 Bao ZHang format is written correctly. But im still scared. HAHAS. Maybe i should heed my sis's advice. She said :" Psychologists proof that if you believe it, you can see it." I shall believe that i CANA1! Amen ! Daddy God will bless me ((:
Pardon me for the super short post as sis needs the com !
I really pray hard that i will be able to attend service this saturday esp with mel, minli, lynn, jasmine, rujun, peisze plus jiankang they all. I really pray hard. In Jesus' name, i pray, AMEN !
Monday, June 01, 2009
Chinese Os today. Paper 1 and Paper 2. It all ended right today.
For many, including myself, it is likeF-I-N-A-L-L-Y over. I told myself after Paper 1 not to let it affect my mood for Paper 2. And i was quite happy with P2. But now when im alone, i think back. Im afraid, esp when im alone. Im scared that i may not make it. So many people 看好我 but i feel like i've let them down. I've let all the teachers' hard work down. I've let those who care and love me down. I've let my clique of friends down. I've let myself down. Although you may say we should look at the bright side, but i just cant control myself from thinking in this way. I feel like it's the end for my chinese. I really dont think i'll have the mood to retake lor. I really dont want to retake la. But i wrote shit for my paper 1. Crap Shit. I dont think my P2 is so strong to coverup for it. Even if i chiong for my Oral and LC, i dont think they can coverup for P1 to let me have an A. I just dont have the mood suddenly. I really feel like banging my head on the wall hard to wake myself up.
I really have high hopes for my Chinese la. ARGHS. i think i'll go bonkers lor. Hope im better tmr. I have to accompany my CHEWYULYNN so i cannot be moody. If not she'll complain. So i should start to laugh like mad like how i usually do.
Maybe i should be a 乐观者 like the Chinese compre passage said. I should stand up from where i fall and 坚持下去. Anyway, i still have to thank my juniors who lent their dictionaries to us. Esp Qixiang, TanCheryl and Peiyi. Thanks to SohYee, TinCing, TanCheryl, Qixiang and Peiyi ! Without your dictionaries, i think i'll die even worst. I thank you all on behalf of the tall tree too((: Shall treat you all drinks someday yea? Im touched by Peiyi lah. She went to meet SohYee and TinChing late at night just for my dictionary. Then she woke up early in the morning to pass me the dictionaries with TanCheryl. Qixiang sacrificed his teddy bear sleep for my dictionary. He super cute lah ! Thanks my sweet and cute little juniors ! ♥
I need a strong pillar for me to lean on now. I feel that i may fall anytime.
P.S : Guiling, it's not your fault lah. It's my own stupidity and foolishness. Please dont feel guilty (:
Currently studying in Yuying Sec, 4D.
Im proud to be in YYSSCO, playing the gaohu.
Daddy God brought me to this world on 19aug1993 &&i ♥ FAHRENHEIT ! i ♥ GOD
i ♥ CHIPMUNKS :D
i ♥ PURPLE the way i ROCK !
i ♥ my GIRLFRIENDS; LYNN, YULYNN, EMILIA, MELISSA, JASMINE AND MINLI
i ♥ 208; NICHOLASTANSHENGHUI :DD
i ♥ er-hu / gaohu
i ♥ YYSCHINESE ORCHESTRA
i ♥ CHOCOLATES, not too sweet or bitter :D
i ♥ 金桢勋/김정훈/KIM JUNG HOON :DDDD
i ♥ 陈奕儒/CALVIN CHEN YI RU :DDDD
i ♥ korean and chinese songs(:
i'll BITE if you're nasty !
Finally. Im uploading the Sakae outing pictures. I uploaded only 2 in my blog. HAHAS. But the rest i will upload in my Facebook. 51 pics leh If i upload here it'll be super lag.
Anyways, went to Emilia's house for 'Popiah Party' just now.
Altogether 8 of us (including me) went and wreaked havoc in her house. (oops)
There were Me, Minli, Lynn, Mel, Gi, Reb, DJ, WeeLiang and of course Emilia herself.
Super high and fun.
HAHAS.
Shall upload the photos on facebook.
I think all of us gained 5kg.
HAHAS.
We ate and ate and ate.
Exercise of the day were;
Exercise for eyes - watch teevee
Exercise mouth - eat and talk
Exercise hands - wrap popiah, take food, play mahjong/ tai dee
Exercise ears - listen to stories
Exercise legs - walk to Emilia's house from Serangoon MRT
HAHAS.
See? got exercise okay?
It was so sumptuous.
Got Popiah, pasta, some chinese snack from Reb, chicken wings, potato chips, fruits, chocolate fondue, Emilia's maid's homemade pau and doughnut made by Emilia's maid from leftover dough of pau. So many things to EAT :D
School's re-opening sooooooooooooooooooon,
Im scared i cant sleep earlier.
Im scared i cant wake up early. Im scared i'll not be able to stay awake in school. Im scSCREAMMMMMMS.ared i'll forget to bring important stuffs. Im scared i'll not be able to pay attention in class.
Im scared i'll yawn the whole day.
Im scared i'll keep talking.
Im scared i'll be super tired.
Finally, IM SCARED THAT I'LL FORGET THERE'S SCHOOL !
Just some random note:
Solitaire is so fun when you play it with a friend ! (:
Right, Pabu? *winks*
AHHH.
HILLSONG CONCERT
COUNTING DOWN TO 29 days :DDDDDDDD
Monday, June 22, 2009
It'll be super slow if i upload one by one.
So i merged it into a collage (:
The sakae one i need to wait till i have time then i'll update.
Cause i have to tell stories.
HAHAS.
Anyway, i covered my face in 2 pics as i look super retarted.
YAYNESS.
Clique BBQ confirmed on 25th June :D
I miss all my CHIO-BUs !
Especially ChewYuLynn.
The last time i saw her was like superlong ago lah ):
Gonna go Sheng Shiong to buy the food and stuffs on tuesday after POA.
&I guess i'll be wearing full sch u as Mrs Gan requested.
&&Shermin wants to go Sticky, which is at Clarke Quay.
LOLS.
Finished watching Boys Over Flowers like finally.
Sorry lah, i know i slow.
HAHAS.
Got finish better than never watch at all.
But now i finish watching, i feel very empty.
Cause for the past weeks, i've been chiong-ing home to watch it.
Then now nthg to watch already.
):
Anyway,
Daddy God realy answered my prayers.
Lynn accompanied me to church cause bobian need to buy Hillsong concert tix.
But at least she got accompany me lah :D
Then suddenly while having P&W, 2 familiar faces appeared :
LongJie and XinRong.
Then they joined us.
Aft that, i went out to fetch JianKang in.
We keep talking throughout.
Only manage to note down few things.
Then aft that we went to get the Hillsong tix.
The tix person very poor thing.
Have to tear 37 tix one by one.
Plus, the tix are super thick and difficult to tear.
Then Chase encouraged me to bring them to the level session.
Anyway, im proud to announce that TAN LONGJIE & TAN JIANKANG are officially
NEW CREATION CHURCH'S members :D
I hope that Lynn they all will go to the level session next Sat with me.
I look forward.
Chase says i should encourage them to come.
Hmmm, how to?
Daddy God, please help me !
ROAR,
IM HUNGRY :O
I think you stole my heart away....
Friday, June 19, 2009
Suddenly had the inspiration to blog at 1am in the morning. HAHAS. No pics in this post however. Sorry ah. HAHAS.
Been crazily watching Boys Over Flowers. I know im kinda slow lah. But i couldnt dl it into my Qvod Player. Until Hols start then i start. LOLS. After watching so many scenes of Jun Pyo making Jan Di so sad, and then Ji Hoo to the rescue, i cant stop having this jealous feeling. The feeling of :"how i wish i am her" and at the same time, "dont want to be like her" feeling. I wish i am her cause she always has Ji Hoo being her Guardian Angel, Guarding her wherever she is, protecting her. I dont want to be like her cause i dont want to love so painfully. Although at the end, it's worth it. but it's super torturous okay? hais, how i wish there's someone like Ji Hoo existing in the world, always there for me, being my guardian angel. At the same time, i also hope to have a boyf like Jun pyo. So caring at times and quarrelling with me, so fun. To think of all these, this thought suddenly came :" It's God's arrangement. Daddy God will definitely help you find your Mr. Right who is the one and only for you." And aft this, i thought :" I already have a guardian angel ! Daddy God♥" HAHAS.
Was talking to this Pabu idiot on msn. Me :"dont you feel that night is so much better than day?" Pabu :"y? i feel the same. except day always sweat." Me :"night is so quiet and pleasant to let your mind able to quieten down and think a lot of things" Pabu :"because its time to sleep"
then i really sian diao Me :"No. really.you definitely got sit at the bus stop at night alone right?" Pabu :" Yea, Just now." Me :"dont you like the night breeze?" Pabu :"i like. But aircon nicer what."
this time i super sian le. LOLS. so i didn't continue the topic with Pabu. CausePabu not mature enough to understand.
But seriously, it feels really great to sit at a quiet corner, enjoying the night breeze. Thinking and reflecting about Life and stuffs. so nice right? I feel like taking a break. Feel like sitting down with someone and share my thoughts.
Anyway, treating Daddy to delifrance breakfast buffet for father's day. And he agreed :D Super happy. Havent eat breakfast together as a family outside le. The last time was like few years back lah.
Pabu lah you. HAHAS.
Daddy God, I really miss going to DARE. Find someone to go with me this saturday and make it fun and fruitful alright? Thank you Daddy. In the name of Jesus, I pray, AMEN :D
Sunday, June 14, 2009
OMG. uber HIGH now. *SCREAMS !* Thanks LynnWee for making me so HIGH. sounds wrong right? HAHAS. actually is cause of the hillsong thing. The Zone Conference. SUPER COOL SIA ! Want to know more about my church, New creation Church? Link :Http://www.newcreation.org.sg Want to know more about The Zone? Link : Http://www.thezone.newcreation.org.sg Want to know more about the youth service that i always go to? Link : http://thezone.newcreation.org.sg/dare
SuperHIGHla! Anyway, it's called The Zone Conference, Guest Speaker : Ps Judah Smith Praise and Worship by Hillsong United(scream!) Get ready for this AWESOME event. If you're interested, feel free to ask me (: I'll try to answer as many questions as possible. I entered NCC last yr around sept only okay? HAHAS.
I missDARE service now. I WANT TO GO NEXT WEEK ! Anyone wanna go too? :DD
Anyway, i was supposed to be angry and irritated by my Mum once again. But after Lynn told me that the tickets reservation has started, i become uber HIGH. God's grace to have Lynn to cheer me up indirectly. HAHAS. I then changed my msn nick to : Im uber high now ! Thanks Lynnwee. HAHAS !
After that, Wee saw it:
Lynn wee, says: thank me, must also love me la.
Then i changed to: Im uber high now ! Love Lynnwee lah. HAHAS !
Hahas. Confirmed List now got: 1) Jolene (me) 2)Lynn 3)Mel 4)Min Li 5)Gi 6)Jasmine 7)Yusen 8)Kelvin 9)Kaye 10)Nicholas 208
And GJ told me to reserve 5 tix for her. &Also, she didnt know that Eunice and Mel are coming back from Bangkok, Thailand tmr. LOLS. She forgot that today's Sunday. so funny lah that auntie. (oops, lucky she dont read my blog)
Anyway, i'll try to upload all the 50plus photos i took for the Sakae trip. &With narrations and short retarted and cute stories. My girls are very cute one okay? HAHAS. Anticipate my next post !
Hey Jesus, you're so fine, you're so fine you blow our minds, Hey Jesus !
Tuesday, June 09, 2009
BIAS. Do you know what it really feels? Ever tried to be treated not as well as your siblings by your mother? No. I cant blame the fact that you dont feel it so you dont care. But i tell you something. You know what? I SERIOUSLY CARE about it okay? It's not that im over-sensitive or making a big fuss. Im also not bad-mouthing Jie. It's just that she's been treated by you better. Jie is unconscious so it's not her fault. She's born to be the weaker one who needs more attention and love. Yes, i dont deny this fact. But do you have to be so bias? Just cause she cried. You want her to rest. Yes, she has more stress. I admit. But dont i have my stress too? It's simply your BIAS-NESS lah. Come on man, it really hurts me a lot. When i was studying for my common tests and my O level Chinese, you dont really treat me so good can? You only came in to nag. I still had to do housework on the eve of O LEVEL. hello? O LEVEL mind you. I want to graduate with an A1 for chinese. Im not as hardworking as Jie. So i need to grab every extra opportunity to revise. Aiya, i say so much you also dont understand. Im always the naughty and stupidest one in your eyes right? Im useless, lazy&love to talk back. You threaten me that you'll go crazy if i accept Christ. I have my freedom. I think im better being a Christian. At least im not forced to kneel. I like it like that. I like it ! &Thanks for discriminating my religion. i told you i will talk to you nicely. When i talk to you nicely, you told me off. You didnt want to listen. When i have problems, you want to watch your teevee, do your stuffs. You feel that im a nuisance. My sharing of troubles and everything else are only CRAP to you.
C-R-A-P. I dont feel important you know? You love to kp me early in the morning. Have you ever thought of how it will affect me for the rest of my day? You wont understand.
Nobody understands.
I think i'll go crazy someday. You treat me well when you need favour or when i do housework. I talk to you nicely you talk to me until very fierce. ARGHHS/ im piss-ed. thanks.
I bet you dont even know even if i cry. &i bet you'll not even bother and will feel that im childish. You Dont Even Care. And see, here comes your nagging. I think my head will burst soon. I feel like breaking down. But who will be there if i ever break down? Hais,
"Thanks" for everything.
Saturday, June 06, 2009
ARGHS :/ been stucked at home the whole day to rot. And i've done nthg but watch teevee and surf the net. &By surfing blogshops, all the clothes have start to tempt me. Esp those oversized ones. AHHH !
This attracted me very much. HAHAS. Today has been super boring lah. I've been : Eating, surfing net, playing online games, watching teevee. Sucky day.
Anyways, im finally like going to exercise. Super fun to play badminton, esp with my bunch of lovely Girls. Will be playing on Monday@ Hougang Sports Hall. Those who're going there on Monday, you may be lucky enough to see us there (: Mel sent me an sms to remind me to dig out my "treasure" Her sms super cute and funny lahs:
Elephant! Rem to dig your treasure out hor (: Ps: treasure = racket(:
Copied exactly. Mel, it's supposed to be racquet. HAHAS. So cute larh. TREASURE... Will be going with Mel, MinLi, Gi, Reb, Gi's bro, etc.... And Mel didn't dare to speak to the person to book the courts, Therefore, JoleneTeo here has to do the job. I tell you, the person super funny. She asked a lot of questions. Like almost my whole particulars she wanna know such as IC No., address, number.... Now then i know book courts so 麻烦 one. Im seriously bored lah. Nobody entertain me. Stupid Ziqi reply super slow. Old people reply very slow one, so cannot blame :/ Then the Guiling MIA. Ps: Guiling, if you wanna make comment, pls dont tag on my board. Later whole world know who you are then not fun le. HAHAS.
Ohmygod, coursework next week. Need to chiong le lah. I think this hols is like not hols lor. Like normal school. Study camp starts at 8am and ends at 3.15pm. Start and end a bit later than normal school day nia, what's th diff ? :/ But the school is "nice" enough to provide breakfast and lunch for us. Wednesday Breakfast - Curry puff + Soya bean milk Lunch - Black Pepper chicken rice + packet drinks Thursday Breakfast - Some cake which is not soft at all + ChinChow No lunch as we ended at 1 plus Friday Breakfast - Spring Roll and cake + Soya Bean Milk Lunch - Chinese Mixed Rice + packet drinks.
&while we were all eating, everyone else from sec 1 - 3 were looking at us with weird eyes. And eating together with the whole Sec 4 Exp and Sec 5 Na make us look like we're really having camp. HAHAS. We're like criminals in boot camp lah.
Okay, i shall say BYEBYE.
It hurts a lot to leave you.... &I feel so empty without your presence... Everytime you say bye, it seems like you'll never come back. I love to see your smile. It makes me feel like im not alone anymore. 只有你的笑容能让我心动 Saranghae♥
Thursday, June 04, 2009
Time flies, it's like Thursday already lah. Study camp was okay. except the fact that i was forcing my eyes open.. HAHAS. Super tired lah. It's like holidays now and the first thing you see in the morning in school are less than half of the school's population. When you think of it, you'll be like:" Why am i suffering here when all the juniors are playing, having fun, hanging out?" But when results show, you'll start to thank the teachers. And somemore, i think all our teachers are very 伟大 lor. They sacrifice their holidays just to come back and teach the sleepy us. Let's show our gratitude to them by paying attention in class ((:
Anyway, i heard that my chinese P1 Bao ZHang format is written correctly. But im still scared. HAHAS. Maybe i should heed my sis's advice. She said :" Psychologists proof that if you believe it, you can see it." I shall believe that i CANA1! Amen ! Daddy God will bless me ((:
Pardon me for the super short post as sis needs the com !
I really pray hard that i will be able to attend service this saturday esp with mel, minli, lynn, jasmine, rujun, peisze plus jiankang they all. I really pray hard. In Jesus' name, i pray, AMEN !
Monday, June 01, 2009
Chinese Os today. Paper 1 and Paper 2. It all ended right today.
For many, including myself, it is likeF-I-N-A-L-L-Y over. I told myself after Paper 1 not to let it affect my mood for Paper 2. And i was quite happy with P2. But now when im alone, i think back. Im afraid, esp when im alone. Im scared that i may not make it. So many people 看好我 but i feel like i've let them down. I've let all the teachers' hard work down. I've let those who care and love me down. I've let my clique of friends down. I've let myself down. Although you may say we should look at the bright side, but i just cant control myself from thinking in this way. I feel like it's the end for my chinese. I really dont think i'll have the mood to retake lor. I really dont want to retake la. But i wrote shit for my paper 1. Crap Shit. I dont think my P2 is so strong to coverup for it. Even if i chiong for my Oral and LC, i dont think they can coverup for P1 to let me have an A. I just dont have the mood suddenly. I really feel like banging my head on the wall hard to wake myself up.
I really have high hopes for my Chinese la. ARGHS. i think i'll go bonkers lor. Hope im better tmr. I have to accompany my CHEWYULYNN so i cannot be moody. If not she'll complain. So i should start to laugh like mad like how i usually do.
Maybe i should be a 乐观者 like the Chinese compre passage said. I should stand up from where i fall and 坚持下去. Anyway, i still have to thank my juniors who lent their dictionaries to us. Esp Qixiang, TanCheryl and Peiyi. Thanks to SohYee, TinCing, TanCheryl, Qixiang and Peiyi ! Without your dictionaries, i think i'll die even worst. I thank you all on behalf of the tall tree too((: Shall treat you all drinks someday yea? Im touched by Peiyi lah. She went to meet SohYee and TinChing late at night just for my dictionary. Then she woke up early in the morning to pass me the dictionaries with TanCheryl. Qixiang sacrificed his teddy bear sleep for my dictionary. He super cute lah ! Thanks my sweet and cute little juniors ! ♥
I need a strong pillar for me to lean on now. I feel that i may fall anytime.
P.S : Guiling, it's not your fault lah. It's my own stupidity and foolishness. Please dont feel guilty (:
