Do you ever believe in fairytales? I dont. I believe in Jesus. Daddy God is the best-damn-GOD on Earth! He sent Jesus down and Jesus died for us. Daddy God loves me and I love Daddy God :DD
"I love the LORD because He has heard my voice and my supplications." Psalm 116:1
Daddy God, i pray that my family and all my friends will soon accept you into their heart and let you be their Almighty Daddy God. In the name of Jesus, i pray, AMEN !
BLABBERINGS;
Saturday, April 25, 2009
I've finally stepped down from my CCA. I can feel that a very heavy burden is taken away from my shoulder. I feel relieved but also sad. I just feel very empty inside me and i dont feel like letting go. I dont feel like letting go all my happiness i had in YYSSCO. I dont feel like letting go all my sorrowness i had in YYSSCO. I dont feel like letting go my wonderful ex-co in YYSSCO. I dont feel like letting go my wonderful juniors esp ER-HUers in YYSSCO. I dont feel like letting go my seat from YYSSCO. I dont feel like letting go of everything. For the starting of this year, most of us, the seniors would wish very much to step down quickly. And for now, i feel that i wouldn't want to step down lah ! )))):
Although i can concentrate on my studies whole-heartedly, but i cant bare to leave YYSSCO. YYSSCO is the place where i laughed, scolded, cried, nagged. It's the place where i can play music and forget about studies temporary. it's also the place that i get scolded and nagged. I suddenly feel empty that no instructors and conductors will nag at me after today. I miss everything in YYSSCO. I miss DingLaoShi, FuLaoShi, ZhangLaoShi. Not very much of the other teachers though. I've learnt a lot about music as well as life lessons through them. I dont feel like growing up and graduating now. Although i can come back after i graduate but the feeling is different. But whatever it is, i still have to let go because the time has come.
After we step down, there'll be a new batch of "mothers" to take care of you guys. I really hope that you all will give them less trouble and respect them. Even if you're of the same age as them, you still have to respect them okay?
Don't miss my scoldings and naggings hor. Especially ER-HUers. Now no more mother to nag you all the bring instrument home to practice. Nobody scold you for causing untidiness. Nobody to entertain you all with Zhang Bin. Nobody poke her nose into your businesses. Better listen to the next section leader okay? Dont make Zhang Lao Shi angry anymore. He care and love you all so much, dont disappoint him. Show him that you all are like what he said, the best students he ever taught.
Okay, tears are rolling down my cheeks as im typing these. For the last time, Love, Your shou xi, nagging senior, zhang ah yi(for shuhui), JOLENE :D
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
GOLDGOLDGOLDGOLDGOLDGOLDGOLDGOLDGOLDGOLD ! ahhhh... super super happy. SUPER PROUD OF YYSSCO. all thanks to our poor conductor, Ms Ding Xiao Yan, assistant conductor cum instructor, Ms Fu YingYing our instructors, Mr Zhang Bin, Mr Shen Guo Qing,Mr Guo Chang Suo and Mr Qu Feng. they all nag and scold like dont know what. They teach our school until want vomit blood. LOLS. But for what and why? They do everything not only to fufill heir job, but because they care for us. I cried for 3 consecutive times yesterday okay? The first time was towards the ending of practice. Zhang Bin scolded me. I felt disappointed at my self and sad as it's the last practice that Zhang Bin's gonna teach me): And i cried in front of Zhang Laoshi ( he hit my head when i cried), whole erhu section, in front of my sis,flora,lynn, emilia and other yuying students walking past AVA room. So pai seh can? And maybe cause of stress ba. second time i cried was when i was outside conference hall at the carpark there. I saw zhangbin. Then i very sad. HAHAS. Then i walk with zhihui to the lorry there to tell who's leaving and who's staying for the results. Then i saw zhangbin, i walked to him, shake his hand and said:" Laoshi, last SYF ! " and i cried. Then he call me sha gua. LOLS. then i faster run cause later he whack my head again. Imagine being his "helper" in YYSCO for 3 plus years. And every practice he will nag and tease me. He's like my father like that lor. LOLS.super sad that he's not teaching me anymore ): Third time i cried was during results when they announced Yuying CO got GOLD. We all SCREAMED like mad sia. LOLS. i think i screamed louder than Fahrenheit concert.
Anyway, i didn't went to school today as i wasnt feeling well. Had fever just before the competition and i didnt know until my sis applied make up for me and realise my face was warm. Now, it's time to chiong my studies ! :D
iloveYYSCO !
thanks to those who supported us, wished us good luck and congratulated us. good luck to guitar !
Sunday, April 19, 2009
OHMYGOD, SYF is approaching. AHHHHHH! But im happy to say that CO members are putting in effort and working hard. That's good news. Maybe they want to chiong at the back, dont want waste effort. HAHAS. I really hope that we'll get our hearts desire just like the band. We are smelling Gold already ! YYSCO, let's work hard together for these remaining 2 days. At the end, we'll definitely be contented with the results. After all our hard work, it sure will pay off. As long as we work together as one CO.
ROAR :O Been super busy preparing for SYF. Monday - combined practice Tuesday - sectionals first then combined Wednesday - teach new members / sectionals(for some sections only) Thursday - Erhu sectional (my section :D) Friday - combined Saturday - combined As you can see, im only free on Weds and Sundays. Cause ZhiHui and Peiyi helped me lighten my load by teaching the new members so i wouldn't have to go. Thanks to Zhihui and Peiyi (: i think i'll become very china now. Everyday humming to the tune of my two SYF songs : Set piece: Cicada song & Chosen piece: Lao Shu Qu Qing im going gaga over these two songs that i think i temporary forgotten FAHRENHEIT's songs. HAHA, somehow dont know why, CO song sounds more familiar than FAHRENHEIT songs. My whole brain is : CO, SYF, CO, SYF, PLAY WELL, DONT GET SCOLDED, PLAY WELL, DONT GET SCOLDED, SCORES, GOLD, SCORES, GOLD.
I feel tired everyday. But trying to hang on till the end. Everyone's tired and stressed. Not only me, so, self convincing comes in: TIRED IS NOT AN EXCUSE TO GIVE UP ! no matter how my butt hurts, i still insist of sitting at least 2/4 of my chair for normal practices and 1/4 of my chair for actual rehearsals. Must try to adapt ma. Oh yea, did i mention that we changed our co costume? We changed it from purple to green(something like lime green) and black skirt. And the guys' costume super nice can ? Im jealous. HAHAS.
Currently studying in Yuying Sec, 4D.
Im proud to be in YYSSCO, playing the gaohu.
Daddy God brought me to this world on 19aug1993 &&i ♥ FAHRENHEIT ! i ♥ GOD
i ♥ CHIPMUNKS :D
i ♥ PURPLE the way i ROCK !
i ♥ my GIRLFRIENDS; LYNN, YULYNN, EMILIA, MELISSA, JASMINE AND MINLI
i ♥ 208; NICHOLASTANSHENGHUI :DD
i ♥ er-hu / gaohu
i ♥ YYSCHINESE ORCHESTRA
i ♥ CHOCOLATES, not too sweet or bitter :D
i ♥ 金桢勋/김정훈/KIM JUNG HOON :DDDD
i ♥ 陈奕儒/CALVIN CHEN YI RU :DDDD
i ♥ korean and chinese songs(:
i'll BITE if you're nasty !
I've finally stepped down from my CCA. I can feel that a very heavy burden is taken away from my shoulder. I feel relieved but also sad. I just feel very empty inside me and i dont feel like letting go. I dont feel like letting go all my happiness i had in YYSSCO. I dont feel like letting go all my sorrowness i had in YYSSCO. I dont feel like letting go my wonderful ex-co in YYSSCO. I dont feel like letting go my wonderful juniors esp ER-HUers in YYSSCO. I dont feel like letting go my seat from YYSSCO. I dont feel like letting go of everything. For the starting of this year, most of us, the seniors would wish very much to step down quickly. And for now, i feel that i wouldn't want to step down lah ! )))):
Although i can concentrate on my studies whole-heartedly, but i cant bare to leave YYSSCO. YYSSCO is the place where i laughed, scolded, cried, nagged. It's the place where i can play music and forget about studies temporary. it's also the place that i get scolded and nagged. I suddenly feel empty that no instructors and conductors will nag at me after today. I miss everything in YYSSCO. I miss DingLaoShi, FuLaoShi, ZhangLaoShi. Not very much of the other teachers though. I've learnt a lot about music as well as life lessons through them. I dont feel like growing up and graduating now. Although i can come back after i graduate but the feeling is different. But whatever it is, i still have to let go because the time has come.
After we step down, there'll be a new batch of "mothers" to take care of you guys. I really hope that you all will give them less trouble and respect them. Even if you're of the same age as them, you still have to respect them okay?
Don't miss my scoldings and naggings hor. Especially ER-HUers. Now no more mother to nag you all the bring instrument home to practice. Nobody scold you for causing untidiness. Nobody to entertain you all with Zhang Bin. Nobody poke her nose into your businesses. Better listen to the next section leader okay? Dont make Zhang Lao Shi angry anymore. He care and love you all so much, dont disappoint him. Show him that you all are like what he said, the best students he ever taught.
Okay, tears are rolling down my cheeks as im typing these. For the last time, Love, Your shou xi, nagging senior, zhang ah yi(for shuhui), JOLENE :D
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
GOLDGOLDGOLDGOLDGOLDGOLDGOLDGOLDGOLDGOLD ! ahhhh... super super happy. SUPER PROUD OF YYSSCO. all thanks to our poor conductor, Ms Ding Xiao Yan, assistant conductor cum instructor, Ms Fu YingYing our instructors, Mr Zhang Bin, Mr Shen Guo Qing,Mr Guo Chang Suo and Mr Qu Feng. they all nag and scold like dont know what. They teach our school until want vomit blood. LOLS. But for what and why? They do everything not only to fufill heir job, but because they care for us. I cried for 3 consecutive times yesterday okay? The first time was towards the ending of practice. Zhang Bin scolded me. I felt disappointed at my self and sad as it's the last practice that Zhang Bin's gonna teach me): And i cried in front of Zhang Laoshi ( he hit my head when i cried), whole erhu section, in front of my sis,flora,lynn, emilia and other yuying students walking past AVA room. So pai seh can? And maybe cause of stress ba. second time i cried was when i was outside conference hall at the carpark there. I saw zhangbin. Then i very sad. HAHAS. Then i walk with zhihui to the lorry there to tell who's leaving and who's staying for the results. Then i saw zhangbin, i walked to him, shake his hand and said:" Laoshi, last SYF ! " and i cried. Then he call me sha gua. LOLS. then i faster run cause later he whack my head again. Imagine being his "helper" in YYSCO for 3 plus years. And every practice he will nag and tease me. He's like my father like that lor. LOLS.super sad that he's not teaching me anymore ): Third time i cried was during results when they announced Yuying CO got GOLD. We all SCREAMED like mad sia. LOLS. i think i screamed louder than Fahrenheit concert.
Anyway, i didn't went to school today as i wasnt feeling well. Had fever just before the competition and i didnt know until my sis applied make up for me and realise my face was warm. Now, it's time to chiong my studies ! :D
iloveYYSCO !
thanks to those who supported us, wished us good luck and congratulated us. good luck to guitar !
Sunday, April 19, 2009
OHMYGOD, SYF is approaching. AHHHHHH! But im happy to say that CO members are putting in effort and working hard. That's good news. Maybe they want to chiong at the back, dont want waste effort. HAHAS. I really hope that we'll get our hearts desire just like the band. We are smelling Gold already ! YYSCO, let's work hard together for these remaining 2 days. At the end, we'll definitely be contented with the results. After all our hard work, it sure will pay off. As long as we work together as one CO.
ROAR :O Been super busy preparing for SYF. Monday - combined practice Tuesday - sectionals first then combined Wednesday - teach new members / sectionals(for some sections only) Thursday - Erhu sectional (my section :D) Friday - combined Saturday - combined As you can see, im only free on Weds and Sundays. Cause ZhiHui and Peiyi helped me lighten my load by teaching the new members so i wouldn't have to go. Thanks to Zhihui and Peiyi (: i think i'll become very china now. Everyday humming to the tune of my two SYF songs : Set piece: Cicada song & Chosen piece: Lao Shu Qu Qing im going gaga over these two songs that i think i temporary forgotten FAHRENHEIT's songs. HAHA, somehow dont know why, CO song sounds more familiar than FAHRENHEIT songs. My whole brain is : CO, SYF, CO, SYF, PLAY WELL, DONT GET SCOLDED, PLAY WELL, DONT GET SCOLDED, SCORES, GOLD, SCORES, GOLD.
I feel tired everyday. But trying to hang on till the end. Everyone's tired and stressed. Not only me, so, self convincing comes in: TIRED IS NOT AN EXCUSE TO GIVE UP ! no matter how my butt hurts, i still insist of sitting at least 2/4 of my chair for normal practices and 1/4 of my chair for actual rehearsals. Must try to adapt ma. Oh yea, did i mention that we changed our co costume? We changed it from purple to green(something like lime green) and black skirt. And the guys' costume super nice can ? Im jealous. HAHAS.
