Do you ever believe in fairytales? I dont. I believe in Jesus. Daddy God is the best-damn-GOD on Earth! He sent Jesus down and Jesus died for us. Daddy God loves me and I love Daddy God :DD
"I love the LORD because He has heard my voice and my supplications." Psalm 116:1
Daddy God, i pray that my family and all my friends will soon accept you into their heart and let you be their Almighty Daddy God. In the name of Jesus, i pray, AMEN !
BLABBERINGS;
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
im back after MIA-ing for so many damn days. &LYNN WEE's missing my crap. HAHAS ! i realise im having a very bad attitude towards everyone nowadays. GIRLFRIENDS, if you can realise it. but i dont know why. please tell me if i really do have an attitude that i did not have last time. please tell me if you dislike my attitude. i miss the old JOLENE ): lols. but i dont know why i become like that. i no mood study. nothing seems to be able to get into my mind right now. all those "chim" chapters from different subjects.hais. i really wanna study. i wanna be on the right track. i wanna go out too. but i have to know to priorise what's more impt. im tired everyday. im not happy to go to school despite having nice and understanding GIRLFRIENDS around me ): everytime when i think back to how i am, i feel like crying. i know crying would make me feel better, but i cant. i cant cry. there's no tears for me to cry out and destress. someone, make me cry please. ahhhh, im afraid that i would break down. kos i know JOLENE is strong. JOLENE isn't the weak one who will give up easily. i wanna be the JOLENE that is perserverance. the "studying-type, guai kia" JOLENE. the JOLENE that loves studying and loves to go to school. i wanna cry now. but i cant.........i wanna make myself feel better. although i dont wanna be a crybaby, but i feel that crying relieves me. (that's what girls do mostly right?)
mum and rie's back from hongkong. i cried like hell when they went last saturday. but i told myself to be strong and after that, i just enjoyed the moments of freedom without naggings from mum. although the naggings worked out on me, but i HATE it. when rie told me she bought chipmunk keychain&chocolates for me and showed it to me, i cant help but feel like crying. she's always the one who is there for me despite being busy, buying stuffs for me. im really touched. when i had nobody to talk to and before i knew GIRLFRIENDS, she was the one who was there to listen to my boring happenings. i feel that i has been unfair for her for these 15 years. IM SORRY, MY DEAREST. i wanna make it up to you. i really hope i can....i really hope that you wont mind my nuisance and rubbish. i hope that you will remain as what you are. i dont wish to see you becoming ah lian. im scared. although you're not one, but im scared. i dont wanna lose such a great sis like you.i sincerely mean it. i didn't type this whole chunk of words for nothing. i didn't type this just for the sake of showing people how you mean to me. the most important is that you read this. you're the one that i wan to read this whole chunk of words. i mean what i say. i know i may be rubbish and irritating at times. but afterall, we're sisters right? i trust you even more than how i trust mum, dad&even my closest GIRLFRIENDS.
Currently studying in Yuying Sec, 4D.
Im proud to be in YYSSCO, playing the gaohu.
Daddy God brought me to this world on 19aug1993 &&i ♥ FAHRENHEIT ! i ♥ GOD
i ♥ CHIPMUNKS :D
i ♥ PURPLE the way i ROCK !
i ♥ my GIRLFRIENDS; LYNN, YULYNN, EMILIA, MELISSA, JASMINE AND MINLI
i ♥ 208; NICHOLASTANSHENGHUI :DD
i ♥ er-hu / gaohu
i ♥ YYSCHINESE ORCHESTRA
i ♥ CHOCOLATES, not too sweet or bitter :D
i ♥ 金桢勋/김정훈/KIM JUNG HOON :DDDD
i ♥ 陈奕儒/CALVIN CHEN YI RU :DDDD
i ♥ korean and chinese songs(:
i'll BITE if you're nasty !
im back after MIA-ing for so many damn days. &LYNN WEE's missing my crap. HAHAS ! i realise im having a very bad attitude towards everyone nowadays. GIRLFRIENDS, if you can realise it. but i dont know why. please tell me if i really do have an attitude that i did not have last time. please tell me if you dislike my attitude. i miss the old JOLENE ): lols. but i dont know why i become like that. i no mood study. nothing seems to be able to get into my mind right now. all those "chim" chapters from different subjects.hais. i really wanna study. i wanna be on the right track. i wanna go out too. but i have to know to priorise what's more impt. im tired everyday. im not happy to go to school despite having nice and understanding GIRLFRIENDS around me ): everytime when i think back to how i am, i feel like crying. i know crying would make me feel better, but i cant. i cant cry. there's no tears for me to cry out and destress. someone, make me cry please. ahhhh, im afraid that i would break down. kos i know JOLENE is strong. JOLENE isn't the weak one who will give up easily. i wanna be the JOLENE that is perserverance. the "studying-type, guai kia" JOLENE. the JOLENE that loves studying and loves to go to school. i wanna cry now. but i cant.........i wanna make myself feel better. although i dont wanna be a crybaby, but i feel that crying relieves me. (that's what girls do mostly right?)
mum and rie's back from hongkong. i cried like hell when they went last saturday. but i told myself to be strong and after that, i just enjoyed the moments of freedom without naggings from mum. although the naggings worked out on me, but i HATE it. when rie told me she bought chipmunk keychain&chocolates for me and showed it to me, i cant help but feel like crying. she's always the one who is there for me despite being busy, buying stuffs for me. im really touched. when i had nobody to talk to and before i knew GIRLFRIENDS, she was the one who was there to listen to my boring happenings. i feel that i has been unfair for her for these 15 years. IM SORRY, MY DEAREST. i wanna make it up to you. i really hope i can....i really hope that you wont mind my nuisance and rubbish. i hope that you will remain as what you are. i dont wish to see you becoming ah lian. im scared. although you're not one, but im scared. i dont wanna lose such a great sis like you.i sincerely mean it. i didn't type this whole chunk of words for nothing. i didn't type this just for the sake of showing people how you mean to me. the most important is that you read this. you're the one that i wan to read this whole chunk of words. i mean what i say. i know i may be rubbish and irritating at times. but afterall, we're sisters right? i trust you even more than how i trust mum, dad&even my closest GIRLFRIENDS.
