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"I love the LORD because He has heard my voice and my supplications." Psalm 116:1
Daddy God, i pray that my family and all my friends will soon accept you into their heart and let you be their Almighty Daddy God. In the name of Jesus, i pray, AMEN !
BLABBERINGS;
Monday, March 24, 2008
GOD, i really need help. why am i able to motivate myself only during lesson time but not in the aspects of life? like in school, i will normally be the few who will really study and pay attention to the teacher in order that i dont lose out to the syllabus.but to life, i dont find the drive to make me feel happy or what everyday. I feel tired all the time. What has really happened to me? I had this conversation with SOMEONE just a while ago.let's name that someone: A. A and i started on some "reversed psychology". &soon, A starts to "bully" me by saying something to oppose me in purpose. since the last few weeks, i have been behaving weird. Egs: saying and doing things which aren't supposed to be done byJOLENE teo. &each time i do or say something, i have this feeling that i get blamed. which makes me feel somewhat useless. as i was sharing my views with A, A feels that im venting my anger but in my point of view, im not. A "judged" me as : autistic and no resilience(giving up my goal when im only 1 meter away). actually, i kind of agreed. A shared with me the different views of people in life. i told him i was tired of everything and he asked:"ARE YOU TIRED OF EVERYTHING OR HAVE YOU NOT LEARNT HOW TO BE PART OF EVERYTHING?", "IN LIFE, YOU HAVE TO JOIN OR FACE THE PACK". he also said that:" YOU MAY FEEL THAT YOU'RE ONLY TALKING THINGS OUT WHEN OTHERS MIGHT THINK OF YOU AS VENTING YOUR ANGER.", "WITHOUT STATING THE FACTS, MISUNDERSTANDINGS MAY HAPPEN. OTHERS MIGHT NOT HAVE THE PATIENCE." i was also told that my tone used in my conversations are important and may lead to more misunderstandings.
i feel that this conversation may also be GOD's guidance to me. i must really thank him for starting this topic(: some lecturing and scolding might help in waking me up. i may seem very cheerful everyday on the outside, but tired in the inside. i just need to WAKE UP.......
JOLENE TEO WEI TIAN... CAN YOU JUST W-A-K-E U-P?!...... Im seriously just going bonkers !
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GOD, i really need help. why am i able to motivate myself only during lesson time but not in the aspects of life? like in school, i will normally be the few who will really study and pay attention to the teacher in order that i dont lose out to the syllabus.but to life, i dont find the drive to make me feel happy or what everyday. I feel tired all the time. What has really happened to me? I had this conversation with SOMEONE just a while ago.let's name that someone: A. A and i started on some "reversed psychology". &soon, A starts to "bully" me by saying something to oppose me in purpose. since the last few weeks, i have been behaving weird. Egs: saying and doing things which aren't supposed to be done byJOLENE teo. &each time i do or say something, i have this feeling that i get blamed. which makes me feel somewhat useless. as i was sharing my views with A, A feels that im venting my anger but in my point of view, im not. A "judged" me as : autistic and no resilience(giving up my goal when im only 1 meter away). actually, i kind of agreed. A shared with me the different views of people in life. i told him i was tired of everything and he asked:"ARE YOU TIRED OF EVERYTHING OR HAVE YOU NOT LEARNT HOW TO BE PART OF EVERYTHING?", "IN LIFE, YOU HAVE TO JOIN OR FACE THE PACK". he also said that:" YOU MAY FEEL THAT YOU'RE ONLY TALKING THINGS OUT WHEN OTHERS MIGHT THINK OF YOU AS VENTING YOUR ANGER.", "WITHOUT STATING THE FACTS, MISUNDERSTANDINGS MAY HAPPEN. OTHERS MIGHT NOT HAVE THE PATIENCE." i was also told that my tone used in my conversations are important and may lead to more misunderstandings.
i feel that this conversation may also be GOD's guidance to me. i must really thank him for starting this topic(: some lecturing and scolding might help in waking me up. i may seem very cheerful everyday on the outside, but tired in the inside. i just need to WAKE UP.......
JOLENE TEO WEI TIAN... CAN YOU JUST W-A-K-E U-P?!...... Im seriously just going bonkers !
