Do you ever believe in fairytales? I dont. I believe in Jesus. Daddy God is the best-damn-GOD on Earth! He sent Jesus down and Jesus died for us. Daddy God loves me and I love Daddy God :DD
"I love the LORD because He has heard my voice and my supplications." Psalm 116:1
Daddy God, i pray that my family and all my friends will soon accept you into their heart and let you be their Almighty Daddy God. In the name of Jesus, i pray, AMEN !
BLABBERINGS;
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Currently been away from blogging&i think a lot of you missed me. HAHAS ! come on, dont be shy, ADMIT IT ! i have been having mood swings here and there and study groups almost everyday. Mid-year exams are round the corner. Everyone mugging hard. I must work hard. I dont want to be disappointed with my grades. I want to feel happy and proud with my grades. I hope that i will do well. Currently trying my best to complete my evaluation for F&N. God, may you guide me through for my F&N, POA and GEOG(: God, may you guide us through our paper and bless us. Had prayer meeting today. Lixian, Lynn, Leon, Guowei&i were there. HAHAS ! we waited for leon for so long. lucky he came. if not we sure whack him. hahas, just kidding. after that went for lunch at canteen with lixian and lynn. talked a lot of things out but there's still more that i want to express. but sometimes, i feel it being difficult. I feel myself being naggy. Im afraid that my feelings may not interest others. they might get sick of what i want to say. Afterall, all of us are unique&special. I cant expect everyone to agree with me and be forced to sit down and listen to me. So many changes are happening. what happened to us? Due to some changes problems and misunderstandings, i feel that our "clique" no longer exists. I DESTEST people who LOVE to attract attention by acting emo and talking loudly. why must you attract people's attention. if that's what all you want, you succeeded halfway. everyone's caring for you instead of other friends that they have. You're turning our lives upside down. What are we? By-standers that you can grab to accompany you when you're lonely and throw away when you have a whole lot of friends crowding around you? PLEASE, just wake up. Dont always think yourself being pitiful. I feel that acting pitiful will not attract the right attention. I feel that i would make people sympathise you instead of giving you attention. is A-T-T-E-N-T-I-O-N that important to you? Look at yourself in the mirror. Do you think you have the rights to be with us? nah, i dont think so. the changes of you make all of us so horrifying. your once-cute-and-graceful personality had really changed. i seriously am speechless already..........
AHH... i feel like throwing tantrums like a small kid but i cant. i feel terrible having everything cope inside me. i can predict that this would not be a smooth year for me. i just want to cry out loud. SOMEONE, make me cry ! i just wanna cry cry cry !! ): i really feel extremely terrible inside me...
Sunday, April 06, 2008
LALALAs ~
SATURDAY; met lynnwee at orchard. walkd to heeren and loitered in FLASHnSPLASH to find her sis's present but in the end, found nth. jiu walk to taka. bought something cute for junisa's belated belated birthday. lynn bought her "caterpillar" wallet. which looks like bacteria too. HAHAS ! head on to kovan mac for studying. prank call a lot of ppl. damn fun experience. HAHAS ! then we did lots of crazy stuffs as well. oh well, outing with lynnwee is always crazy. PICS : messytable wee doing hmwk part<1> wee doing hmwk part <2> very engrossed... stressed ! cam whoring sign <1> craziness evidence. caterpillar a.k.a bacteria look-alike wallet. thread-like sweet we played with :D
TODAY, met zhengyi in the afternoon. went dhoby ghaut xchange to makan. free flow of ice cream&drinks. ferlyn brought us there last saturday. the makan place is called : " Just Acia". It's kinda of nice but price a bit too high for us, students. but the free flow of ice cream and drinks will really make your money worth if you really drink a lot and love ice cream. there's a varitey of choice, so dont be worry. after tt walkd to bugis to buy my shoe and find bucket bag. searchd the whole place and found best deal - $15. good material. the shop where i bought my checkered bag that i bring to school. &guess what the uncle said? he didn't bring in my bag's new stock alr. which means my bad is very uncommon ! :D ok, zhengyi bought herself a rose pattern bucket bag which is white. &helpd emilia buy the same as well. my sis came to find us halfway while i was buying shoe. she had nthg to do at her boyf's studio. HAHAS ! see, rie, im so nice to let you tag along. =X. she accompanied us ard and bought herself some stickers, a tube and some fake eye lashes for her friend i guess. her tube is really nice. it's a tube dress. the colour looks young and makes her "ginna-bin" look even more ginna. HAHAS ! agree? after tt took 80 to serangoon there to change bus with zhengyi. &you know what? the fucking irritating 43 made me wait for 20plus mins. =.= &the bus journey took more than 20mins =.= lucky it's still not very late. or else i will die. there's death note just now. but i didn't watch. all thanks to LEONLEEMINGZHI. his F&N thingy. nvms, im a NICE person. right? :D
Friday, April 04, 2008
im feeling better now ((: i slept at 9.30pm ystd night and woke up at 6.30am. when i woke up, i realise im only hugging a small pillow. i sleep on a queen-sized bed with my sis. just nice, my sis went to chalet&the whole bed is mine ! :D then everything flew off the bed except for the small pillow im hugging, my blanket&my pillow that im sleeping on. NICE ONE RIGHT? hahas ! maybe im fighting a war in my dream. so hiong.
ran shuttle run&did sit up for PE today. it's been ages since i had PE. more than thrice : one is good friday, another is school holiday, another is kos of my back injury&another is speechday. wahahas ! fats grown. my stomach muscle now is hurting badly. esp my left thigh muscle. IT'S DAMN PAINFUL LA ! then during shuttle run, mdm wong took my handphone for the stopwatch function. then she was looking at my chipmunk - dale. HAHAS ! then she told me:" it so cute la ! " hahas. then after a while, she lift up dale and admired it again. then when she was going to return me my hp, she asked me:" *points at my hp wallpaper(CALVINCHENYIRU)* who is this guy huh? his so skinny ! as skinny as zhi kai." then i was like, wth? is TANZHIKAI as handsome as CALVINCHENYIRU?? oh my ! HAHAS !
GOD, all the obstacles that you set for me are really hard ! i almost gave up. but nevertheless, it motivated me even more to overcome them. JOLENETEOWEITIANmust be STRONG ! :DD
oh yeah, i cried.
Thursday, April 03, 2008
aaahhhh. i repeat myself. I DONT HAVEPMS !!! oh my...everyone's thinking i have PMS... just kos of my mood swing. they dont even bother to read my bloody blog. den they start asking such stupid questions =.= i think kos of the hot hot weather and maybe im just too tired? maybe i should sleep and rest more (: suggestion by TIALIXIAN and CARRIETEOWEIZHI. hahas. guess maybe bah. i shall try to use my weekends for sleeping. (: unless someone wanna study? jio me out. but must see my mood. im suggested to hibernate as well. kos maybe i too hyper the last few days. ENERGY USED UP. but why my fats havent burn? arghhs. *talks to my own body* HEY YOU ! PLEASE BURN MR.FATS TO GET ENERGY ! I'LL BE DAMN HAPPY :DD *finish lame conversation* ( im not "zhi bi zhen" ok?)
hahas. i know it's kinda act cute. but sometimes, such lame and retarted things can make myself laugh out loud. i can laugh very easily. &sometimes, i laugh too hard that i cant stop. just like today. ferlyn, kahhui, mel and twinnie came to my house to watch step up 2. sshhh ! dont tell people it's pirated. im not spreading it. hahas. so please give me a chance ! =X then after watching it, twinnie suggested us to do the last part; "the heartbeat" part. hahas ! then ferlyn became very high. she did a lot of retarted stuffs, as usual. hahas. she danced like dont know what. so funny can? i almost ROFL. i also laughed like mad during F&N lesson with EMILIAQUEKSHUCHIN & LEONLEEMINGZHI. go ahead&ask them what happened. i shall not share it on my blog kos it maybe hurtful to the victim. please do not do the same thing like we did. =P
yawns.....i wanna sleep early. i shall go to bed now. first time that im sleeping so early. i havent been sleeping so early ever since around p4 or 5? hahas.
GOOD NIGHTSEXAYES :DD don't miss me ! =X
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
Pardon me for the ugliness of the background's repetition. im working on the size of the background some other day. hopefully, it will be nicer. this is the first major "operation" i've done to skins. so, give me a chance. HAHAS ! ♥
im back after MIA-ing for so many damn days. &LYNN WEE's missing my crap. HAHAS ! i realise im having a very bad attitude towards everyone nowadays. GIRLFRIENDS, if you can realise it. but i dont know why. please tell me if i really do have an attitude that i did not have last time. please tell me if you dislike my attitude. i miss the old JOLENE ): lols. but i dont know why i become like that. i no mood study. nothing seems to be able to get into my mind right now. all those "chim" chapters from different subjects.hais. i really wanna study. i wanna be on the right track. i wanna go out too. but i have to know to priorise what's more impt. im tired everyday. im not happy to go to school despite having nice and understanding GIRLFRIENDS around me ): everytime when i think back to how i am, i feel like crying. i know crying would make me feel better, but i cant. i cant cry. there's no tears for me to cry out and destress. someone, make me cry please. ahhhh, im afraid that i would break down. kos i know JOLENE is strong. JOLENE isn't the weak one who will give up easily. i wanna be the JOLENE that is perserverance. the "studying-type, guai kia" JOLENE. the JOLENE that loves studying and loves to go to school. i wanna cry now. but i cant.........i wanna make myself feel better. although i dont wanna be a crybaby, but i feel that crying relieves me. (that's what girls do mostly right?)
mum and rie's back from hongkong. i cried like hell when they went last saturday. but i told myself to be strong and after that, i just enjoyed the moments of freedom without naggings from mum. although the naggings worked out on me, but i HATE it. when rie told me she bought chipmunk keychain&chocolates for me and showed it to me, i cant help but feel like crying. she's always the one who is there for me despite being busy, buying stuffs for me. im really touched. when i had nobody to talk to and before i knew GIRLFRIENDS, she was the one who was there to listen to my boring happenings. i feel that i has been unfair for her for these 15 years. IM SORRY, MY DEAREST. i wanna make it up to you. i really hope i can....i really hope that you wont mind my nuisance and rubbish. i hope that you will remain as what you are. i dont wish to see you becoming ah lian. im scared. although you're not one, but im scared. i dont wanna lose such a great sis like you.i sincerely mean it. i didn't type this whole chunk of words for nothing. i didn't type this just for the sake of showing people how you mean to me. the most important is that you read this. you're the one that i wan to read this whole chunk of words. i mean what i say. i know i may be rubbish and irritating at times. but afterall, we're sisters right? i trust you even more than how i trust mum, dad&even my closest GIRLFRIENDS.
Currently studying in Yuying Sec, 4D.
Im proud to be in YYSSCO, playing the gaohu.
Daddy God brought me to this world on 19aug1993 &&i ♥ FAHRENHEIT ! i ♥ GOD
i ♥ CHIPMUNKS :D
i ♥ PURPLE the way i ROCK !
i ♥ my GIRLFRIENDS; LYNN, YULYNN, EMILIA, MELISSA, JASMINE AND MINLI
i ♥ 208; NICHOLASTANSHENGHUI :DD
i ♥ er-hu / gaohu
i ♥ YYSCHINESE ORCHESTRA
i ♥ CHOCOLATES, not too sweet or bitter :D
i ♥ 金桢勋/김정훈/KIM JUNG HOON :DDDD
i ♥ 陈奕儒/CALVIN CHEN YI RU :DDDD
i ♥ korean and chinese songs(:
i'll BITE if you're nasty !
Currently been away from blogging&i think a lot of you missed me. HAHAS ! come on, dont be shy, ADMIT IT ! i have been having mood swings here and there and study groups almost everyday. Mid-year exams are round the corner. Everyone mugging hard. I must work hard. I dont want to be disappointed with my grades. I want to feel happy and proud with my grades. I hope that i will do well. Currently trying my best to complete my evaluation for F&N. God, may you guide me through for my F&N, POA and GEOG(: God, may you guide us through our paper and bless us. Had prayer meeting today. Lixian, Lynn, Leon, Guowei&i were there. HAHAS ! we waited for leon for so long. lucky he came. if not we sure whack him. hahas, just kidding. after that went for lunch at canteen with lixian and lynn. talked a lot of things out but there's still more that i want to express. but sometimes, i feel it being difficult. I feel myself being naggy. Im afraid that my feelings may not interest others. they might get sick of what i want to say. Afterall, all of us are unique&special. I cant expect everyone to agree with me and be forced to sit down and listen to me. So many changes are happening. what happened to us? Due to some changes problems and misunderstandings, i feel that our "clique" no longer exists. I DESTEST people who LOVE to attract attention by acting emo and talking loudly. why must you attract people's attention. if that's what all you want, you succeeded halfway. everyone's caring for you instead of other friends that they have. You're turning our lives upside down. What are we? By-standers that you can grab to accompany you when you're lonely and throw away when you have a whole lot of friends crowding around you? PLEASE, just wake up. Dont always think yourself being pitiful. I feel that acting pitiful will not attract the right attention. I feel that i would make people sympathise you instead of giving you attention. is A-T-T-E-N-T-I-O-N that important to you? Look at yourself in the mirror. Do you think you have the rights to be with us? nah, i dont think so. the changes of you make all of us so horrifying. your once-cute-and-graceful personality had really changed. i seriously am speechless already..........
AHH... i feel like throwing tantrums like a small kid but i cant. i feel terrible having everything cope inside me. i can predict that this would not be a smooth year for me. i just want to cry out loud. SOMEONE, make me cry ! i just wanna cry cry cry !! ): i really feel extremely terrible inside me...
Sunday, April 06, 2008
LALALAs ~
SATURDAY; met lynnwee at orchard. walkd to heeren and loitered in FLASHnSPLASH to find her sis's present but in the end, found nth. jiu walk to taka. bought something cute for junisa's belated belated birthday. lynn bought her "caterpillar" wallet. which looks like bacteria too. HAHAS ! head on to kovan mac for studying. prank call a lot of ppl. damn fun experience. HAHAS ! then we did lots of crazy stuffs as well. oh well, outing with lynnwee is always crazy. PICS : messytable wee doing hmwk part<1> wee doing hmwk part <2> very engrossed... stressed ! cam whoring sign <1> craziness evidence. caterpillar a.k.a bacteria look-alike wallet. thread-like sweet we played with :D
TODAY, met zhengyi in the afternoon. went dhoby ghaut xchange to makan. free flow of ice cream&drinks. ferlyn brought us there last saturday. the makan place is called : " Just Acia". It's kinda of nice but price a bit too high for us, students. but the free flow of ice cream and drinks will really make your money worth if you really drink a lot and love ice cream. there's a varitey of choice, so dont be worry. after tt walkd to bugis to buy my shoe and find bucket bag. searchd the whole place and found best deal - $15. good material. the shop where i bought my checkered bag that i bring to school. &guess what the uncle said? he didn't bring in my bag's new stock alr. which means my bad is very uncommon ! :D ok, zhengyi bought herself a rose pattern bucket bag which is white. &helpd emilia buy the same as well. my sis came to find us halfway while i was buying shoe. she had nthg to do at her boyf's studio. HAHAS ! see, rie, im so nice to let you tag along. =X. she accompanied us ard and bought herself some stickers, a tube and some fake eye lashes for her friend i guess. her tube is really nice. it's a tube dress. the colour looks young and makes her "ginna-bin" look even more ginna. HAHAS ! agree? after tt took 80 to serangoon there to change bus with zhengyi. &you know what? the fucking irritating 43 made me wait for 20plus mins. =.= &the bus journey took more than 20mins =.= lucky it's still not very late. or else i will die. there's death note just now. but i didn't watch. all thanks to LEONLEEMINGZHI. his F&N thingy. nvms, im a NICE person. right? :D
Friday, April 04, 2008
im feeling better now ((: i slept at 9.30pm ystd night and woke up at 6.30am. when i woke up, i realise im only hugging a small pillow. i sleep on a queen-sized bed with my sis. just nice, my sis went to chalet&the whole bed is mine ! :D then everything flew off the bed except for the small pillow im hugging, my blanket&my pillow that im sleeping on. NICE ONE RIGHT? hahas ! maybe im fighting a war in my dream. so hiong.
ran shuttle run&did sit up for PE today. it's been ages since i had PE. more than thrice : one is good friday, another is school holiday, another is kos of my back injury&another is speechday. wahahas ! fats grown. my stomach muscle now is hurting badly. esp my left thigh muscle. IT'S DAMN PAINFUL LA ! then during shuttle run, mdm wong took my handphone for the stopwatch function. then she was looking at my chipmunk - dale. HAHAS ! then she told me:" it so cute la ! " hahas. then after a while, she lift up dale and admired it again. then when she was going to return me my hp, she asked me:" *points at my hp wallpaper(CALVINCHENYIRU)* who is this guy huh? his so skinny ! as skinny as zhi kai." then i was like, wth? is TANZHIKAI as handsome as CALVINCHENYIRU?? oh my ! HAHAS !
GOD, all the obstacles that you set for me are really hard ! i almost gave up. but nevertheless, it motivated me even more to overcome them. JOLENETEOWEITIANmust be STRONG ! :DD
oh yeah, i cried.
Thursday, April 03, 2008
aaahhhh. i repeat myself. I DONT HAVEPMS !!! oh my...everyone's thinking i have PMS... just kos of my mood swing. they dont even bother to read my bloody blog. den they start asking such stupid questions =.= i think kos of the hot hot weather and maybe im just too tired? maybe i should sleep and rest more (: suggestion by TIALIXIAN and CARRIETEOWEIZHI. hahas. guess maybe bah. i shall try to use my weekends for sleeping. (: unless someone wanna study? jio me out. but must see my mood. im suggested to hibernate as well. kos maybe i too hyper the last few days. ENERGY USED UP. but why my fats havent burn? arghhs. *talks to my own body* HEY YOU ! PLEASE BURN MR.FATS TO GET ENERGY ! I'LL BE DAMN HAPPY :DD *finish lame conversation* ( im not "zhi bi zhen" ok?)
hahas. i know it's kinda act cute. but sometimes, such lame and retarted things can make myself laugh out loud. i can laugh very easily. &sometimes, i laugh too hard that i cant stop. just like today. ferlyn, kahhui, mel and twinnie came to my house to watch step up 2. sshhh ! dont tell people it's pirated. im not spreading it. hahas. so please give me a chance ! =X then after watching it, twinnie suggested us to do the last part; "the heartbeat" part. hahas ! then ferlyn became very high. she did a lot of retarted stuffs, as usual. hahas. she danced like dont know what. so funny can? i almost ROFL. i also laughed like mad during F&N lesson with EMILIAQUEKSHUCHIN & LEONLEEMINGZHI. go ahead&ask them what happened. i shall not share it on my blog kos it maybe hurtful to the victim. please do not do the same thing like we did. =P
yawns.....i wanna sleep early. i shall go to bed now. first time that im sleeping so early. i havent been sleeping so early ever since around p4 or 5? hahas.
GOOD NIGHTSEXAYES :DD don't miss me ! =X
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
Pardon me for the ugliness of the background's repetition. im working on the size of the background some other day. hopefully, it will be nicer. this is the first major "operation" i've done to skins. so, give me a chance. HAHAS ! ♥
im back after MIA-ing for so many damn days. &LYNN WEE's missing my crap. HAHAS ! i realise im having a very bad attitude towards everyone nowadays. GIRLFRIENDS, if you can realise it. but i dont know why. please tell me if i really do have an attitude that i did not have last time. please tell me if you dislike my attitude. i miss the old JOLENE ): lols. but i dont know why i become like that. i no mood study. nothing seems to be able to get into my mind right now. all those "chim" chapters from different subjects.hais. i really wanna study. i wanna be on the right track. i wanna go out too. but i have to know to priorise what's more impt. im tired everyday. im not happy to go to school despite having nice and understanding GIRLFRIENDS around me ): everytime when i think back to how i am, i feel like crying. i know crying would make me feel better, but i cant. i cant cry. there's no tears for me to cry out and destress. someone, make me cry please. ahhhh, im afraid that i would break down. kos i know JOLENE is strong. JOLENE isn't the weak one who will give up easily. i wanna be the JOLENE that is perserverance. the "studying-type, guai kia" JOLENE. the JOLENE that loves studying and loves to go to school. i wanna cry now. but i cant.........i wanna make myself feel better. although i dont wanna be a crybaby, but i feel that crying relieves me. (that's what girls do mostly right?)
mum and rie's back from hongkong. i cried like hell when they went last saturday. but i told myself to be strong and after that, i just enjoyed the moments of freedom without naggings from mum. although the naggings worked out on me, but i HATE it. when rie told me she bought chipmunk keychain&chocolates for me and showed it to me, i cant help but feel like crying. she's always the one who is there for me despite being busy, buying stuffs for me. im really touched. when i had nobody to talk to and before i knew GIRLFRIENDS, she was the one who was there to listen to my boring happenings. i feel that i has been unfair for her for these 15 years. IM SORRY, MY DEAREST. i wanna make it up to you. i really hope i can....i really hope that you wont mind my nuisance and rubbish. i hope that you will remain as what you are. i dont wish to see you becoming ah lian. im scared. although you're not one, but im scared. i dont wanna lose such a great sis like you.i sincerely mean it. i didn't type this whole chunk of words for nothing. i didn't type this just for the sake of showing people how you mean to me. the most important is that you read this. you're the one that i wan to read this whole chunk of words. i mean what i say. i know i may be rubbish and irritating at times. but afterall, we're sisters right? i trust you even more than how i trust mum, dad&even my closest GIRLFRIENDS.
